5 years of warm hugs & butterfly kisses. Happy birthday, Kimy luv.

‎It has been a looooong, colourful journey since I first held him in my arms. His arrival into this world was accompanied with a loud, furious cry with flailing little fists in the air– as though he wanted the whole wide world to know that he is now here and that everyone had better be aware of that, or else. He was a beautiful, big, bundle of joy – and I mean ‘big’ as in literally; he weighed 3.93 kilos, all chubby arms and legs and pinches of baby fat almost everywhere.

That moment made 18 hours of painful labour worth all the beautiful things imaginable.

I remember the feeling of how everything seemed to stop and went still for a while as the doctor lifted him, announcing “It’s a boy!”. I insisted to stay half-awake for the C-section, I wanted to see with my own eyes the moment this beautiful life is being delivered out of me. This was the life that has breathed within me, this was the life that has taken comfort to the sound of my heartbeat, this was the life that I felt moving restlessly inside me.

Iskandar Hakimy bin Mohd Effandi. Now a tall, mischevious, playful lil boy who never sits still and entertains me every day with his endless chatter.

Today marks Kimy’s 5^th birthday – and I had everything planned. My original plan to personally attempt a birthday cake for him did not materialized, due to my unhealthy state of being and the limited time that I have due to the overwhelming office demand. And yes I was disappointed in myself for not being able to deliver something as simple as baking a cake. But nevertheless, I was determined to make him the happiest boy alive today, and so I bought him a big chocolate cake, prepared little party-packs for his friends in school, and persuaded his teachers to haul the whole class to a nearby McDonalds to celebrate his birthday. And as the party was finishing & I was busy helping the teachers cleaning up the tables, Kimy suddenly ran up to me, gave me a big, warm hug, stared earnestly into my eyes, and said simply,” I love you, mummy. You’re the best”. That made it all worth it.

5 wonderful years of warm hugs & butterfly kisses from my lil one. 5 adventurous years of laughter and joy, and little toy cars & bedtime stories. Happy birthday, Kimy love. You’re a gift sent from high above. Mummy ♥ you.